Will they miss me?

I felt my eyes exploding,

but the salty tears barely flowing.

Every single time is a trigger,

my mind will give up in a minute.

Will I ever feel happiness again?

And stop thinking about the small stupid  things?

Or will I always feel sad and never get back myself?

Sometimes I wonder:

Will they really miss me?

Because I don't think they cared

while I was near.